Don’t Get Comfortable, Cuz You Can’t Stay!

I had to turn the TV off and chill out…just me, my MacBook and the new Drake Album (Take Care).  I have to totally zone out to put this post together…like the situation, my thoughts are all over the place so just be patient with me.  The more successful I am with being totally honest, finding my role in this exaggerated world and continuing my new passion for blogging, clarity has been a double-edged sword.  I am not only seeing things more clearly, but I m feeling them as well.  The bullsh*t that I am used to allowing to stay in my life is magically disappearing.  The people, the toxic friendships, and the “bad” are all starting to fall to the ground and out of my way.  I make conquering total happiness, a priority.  I make it a point to respect those around me even when they don’t deserve it (sometimes I fall short, but I apologize for my shortcomings)!  With all the greatness that I am feeling there is a small amount of sadness that I feel in learning to say good-bye to the bad people and things around me.  I have discussed this before (“Let Go”), but even with all of the preparedness that I seem to have built up for this moment in my life, I still stand clueless as to how I can make the reality a little less painful.  I’ve learned to step out on my faith…and trust that God will guide my footsteps.  What prompted me to write this?  Let’s just say a conversation with a love/hate “friend” took place.

Details? Not too many that I will offer, but I will say that this person has beyond raised my eyebrow and forced me to redefine what loyalty truly means to me.  Their reasoning for doing what, I believe to be shady, is simple…”I was on their list, but not a priority…” so they “didn’t even think of how [I] would feel.”  Now if that’s not one hell of a reason to do me dirty, I don’t know what is.  Needless to say, this conversation sparked something in me to REALLY understand that not everyone is me and not everyone lives to the same standards of dedication that I do.  I’m done faulting people for their lack of consideration and understanding that not everyone can come on my journey with me.  Some people will have to stop off at the next exit while I continue on my road trip.

THOUGHT: It seems fitting to quote Drake at this point… “May your neighbors respect you, trouble neglect you, angels protect you and Heaven accept you.”  You may not be a part of my life anymore, but I still wish you well.

Let Go!

If I said that the past two weeks were tiring and stressful…that would be the understatement of the century.  I will stray away from the trivial complaints and focus on what’s really important.  For starters, I took a major step in solidifying my independence and just keeping that in the back of my mind is what keeps my adrenaline going!  Although it feels great to take this major stride, I can’t help but take a moment and be still long enough to realize the meaning of it all.  It’s been an emotional couple of weeks…memories that were built in the place I left, the anxiety that comes along with change, uncertainty of what comes next… It’s been really hard, to say the least, but I am learning to let go and if you will, “let God!

I have no clue what tomorrow is going to bring, but I do know
that I am riding this wave of ambiguity and soaking up everything!  Not knowing what will come next is scary, but living a life that feels good makes it worth the risk.  One thing that I have learned to do is sit back, watch and observe the people…the things…the environment around me.  I’m learning something new each day and for the first time the things that I’ve wanted all along are coming my way.  Fun, success, clarity, change, goals worth having…it’s all flowing in my direction and all I can say is…keep it coming!

THOUGHT:  Letting go will make room for the people and things worth holding on to.

Either Love Me or Leave Me Alone…Right?

We’ve all heard the phrase, “either love me or leave me alone” and it’s always been my motto.  As I’ve gotten older, I have adopted a new phrase…“you either love me or you hate me, there’s no in between!”  I’ve come to realize that I’m not the easiest person to get along with and I own up to that, but I will be the most loyal, loving and giving person that you may come to know.  So…you gotta take the good with the bad and you can’t be wishy washy with my friendship/love because I will give it my all.  But even with all of the things I may bring to the table, it took a while for me to understand that I need my “circle” and cannot go through this journey alone. 

When you are outspoken, have a dominant personality and are a bit over confident, it’s easy to begin thinking that you don’t need others around you…well, that’s a complete fantasy.  There are moments when you achieve greatness and hurdle over a milestone and there is nothing greater than to have a strong support system that can share in your success!

It’s important to keep GOOD people in your life and let the “I don’t need anybody” mentality fade into the background.  Trust me, they can motivate you and inspire you in ways that you may not expect...I’ve learned this first-hand!

:  God brings people into your life for a reason…take the time to figure out what that reason is.  There’s a lesson in everything!

Psychotic [Love] Roams Wild…

It runs through us, it captures us and it DRAINS us!  Yet, we still want it!  They say real love shouldn’t be hard…well that’s not always true.  Love is love…whether it’s good for you or not is up to you to decide.  One thing love shouldn’t do is take over your life…it should be equal and built on a foundation of respect.  To even get to this point in my life where I was ready to just BE HAPPY and find a passion to focus on, I had to walk towards the door, leave my luggage behind and not look back!  My love has been psychotically DEEP!  I gave so much of me to so many people that I didn’t even recognize myself when I looked in the mirror.  Sometimes it takes someone stomping on your heart and pushing you to the edge in order for you to wake up and REALIZE that you must love YOU before anyone else.

THOUGHT: If you let love roam wild, eventually you will lose yourself!

Know YOUR Worth…

Whether male or female, big or small, tall or short, black or white…well, you get the point…there’s nothing more important than recognizing your own worth!  I am STILL learning to fully know my own worth, but I will say that I am light years ahead of where I used to be in the personal recognition department.

It’s so easy to get caught up in your own situation, in a bad relationship, in a toxic friendship…all of which will DRAIN your spirit!  If your spirit is drained then you aren’t on point and if you aren’t on point then you will begin to settle for those instant gratification moments instead of the MAJOR life-long success moments!  I had to begin thinking of ways to make sure I wasn’t settling and it began with my RELATIONSHIPS (more in-depth, personal examples in my “Relationship” section)!  I noticed that I began to SETTLE for “love” instead of loooooooooove!  I was so wrapped up with the idea of being loved that I started to put up with any and EVERY thing that I knew I didn’t deserve.

Point. Blank.Period.  I had to begin to know what I was worth and push the baggage OUT of MY life!  I purposely began hand picking the people that I wanted in my life! People that I knew had my best interest at heart.  And I must say, for this to be the beginning of my journey…it FEELS DAMN good to take back control of DANIELLA and free up some mental space to really focus on my purpose in life!  Next stop…trial and error!

Thought: It’s better to have tried and failed then to not have tried at all!